Why oh Why

Why oh Why??
July 2007
By Hetty Jeanette Jensen-Siebens


Life sure feels it's ending
Why did I ever start?
With all these complications-
What keeps me from falling apart?

Do you keep on moving for
When your life is in a twirl?
Or do you shutter in the corner
Just like that little girl?

Why oh why
Do people stare at me?
Do they know my past and present,
Do they know who I'm going to be?

Oh why oh why
Do they stare me down?
Is it what I've given up for them
With no emotions, just a frown?

We should all have emotions
And even some breakdowns
To ever feel the love out there
We must let our true souls out!

Once they've been released
And we begin to find ourselves
We wonder why we kept them in
Placing all feelings on our shelves

"Don't let others rule your life "
My ex told me as his lie
With his angry harsh hands
He beat me down like some crazy guy
But I will never truly understand
His action he completely denied
So no longer could we even try

Why this one wants the wrong but the other has no goal
Why this one hurt my skin but the other hurt my soul
I no longer want to play this game, I just don't want to shout
How do you talk, how do you vent and get your feelings out!!??

Is life about what happened?
I fixed a lot somehow
It may be a steep hill from here
I'm gonna start climbing now!
... up and up do not fall!
... up and up don't you crawl
Just open your heart and let no one tear it apart

NOW when people are glancing at me
I think they see my inside too!
Not just what I've endured, but what I'm gonna do!
I know I'm gonna make it, I'm gonna make it thru!!!

I know I thought about stopping life
Life to me seemed way too hard!
You must learn to open up your heart
Not just keep it all on guard

When all bad thoughts would come to mind
I would help them disappear
You can find your true self deep inside
Do not end it all in fear!!

By Hetty Siebens

July 2007

In His Grip,

Hetty Siebens

Praise Jesus for all His Love, Plans, Patience with me. For all HE has done for me from beginning to now- never could I imagine life without Him.